I am REALLY struggling with worry and fear at the moment. I have so much going on inside of my head, I don't even know where to begin. I worry about anything and everything. I have always been a little worry wart. It is NOT a good quality. My worst actually. But I don't know how to stop it? I hate this feeling, because I feel like I have lost faith and that I am trying to hard to be on control of my life. In a way, maybe that is what I am trying to do. Ever since I became a mom, I feel like my anxiety has multiplied. I worry about Luke, I worry about Nick, I even worry about the darn dog! I have this fear that something is going to happen to me and Luke isn't going to have me growing up. Not because I think I am the best mom in the world, but I am afraid I am going to miss out. It all goes back to my mom dying. I don't want my kids to feel the way I do about losing my mom. Yes, I know that most people will lose their parents first, but I am talking prematurely. I am SO afraid of the what ifs that I am taking away from the joys right now. I struggle with this on a daily basis and I have got to do something about it. I am not going to go into any more details because I don't want to give into these feelings. I want to get past this life time struggle of mine and begin to really enjoy life.
P.S. Thank you to my sweet husband that always has the right things to say to me. I replay his words over and over in my head and remind myself that I NEED to let go and let GOD!!!
A few bible versus that are encouraging to me today:
Can any of you by worrying add a single hour to your span of life? If then you are not able to do so small a thing as that, why do you worry about the rest. (Luke 12:25-26)
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. (John 14:27)
What do you do to cope with your every day struggles?
Oh and I will have a 7 month update on Luke asap!!
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